ON GETTING OLDER

My birthday is coming up and I'm feeling all sorts of emotions...although I'm feeling much better this year than the past few years of my life. But still... I'm constantly checking up on my face on my compact mirror looking for new lines and worst, gray hairs on top of my head. And yes, I have quite a few now, ouch indeed! What is it about getting older that freak us out? Or at least me???

Is this what you call midlife crisis? Let's see, what's a crisis anyway? Dictionary says it is a stage in a sequence of events at which the trend of all future events, especially for better or for worse, is determined; turning point - whoah! Sounds ominous, isn't it?

So, if this is crisis indeed, what does one do during these periods of our lives?

Recently, from a big help from my therapist - I have applied this adage in my life "Take one thing at a time!" - not one DAY, mind you, but ONE THING...

And I have found this to be working for me. I have learned to enjoy the moment, to savour the very event that's going on at this second in my lfe. And not to worry what the future will bring. Sounds easy enough - you say, but really it is.

Like for example, I had a carrot bar today, not a carrot cake that I prefer. I thought it was so delicious that it melted in my mouth and the spice was just great. I savour that carrot bar like my life depended on it. And it just made my day! But that was earlier, so let's forget that. And now, at this very moment, I'm enjoying the flow of words from my brain through my fingers to my keyboards - voila! I have this blog! And I do enjoy this moment because it's been many days that my mind were blank and couldn't write anything.

I don't know if this makes sense, but pretend it does, and see if it works for you... TAKE ONE THING AT A TIME! -- Starting now :)

Your Destiny

Let your thoughts be positive

For they will become your words.

Let your words be positive

For they will become your actions.

Let your actions be positive

For they will become your values.

Let your values be positive

For they will become your destiny.

~~Mahatma Gandhi

ON CHANGING THE WORLD

The following is inscribed on the tomb of an Anglican Bishop in Westminster Abby (1100 A.D.) …

When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits, I dreamed of changing the world.

As I grew older and wiser, I discovered the world would not change, so I shortened my sights somewhat and decided to change only my country.

But it, too, seemed immovable.

As I grew into my twilight years, in one last desperate attempt, I settled for changing only my family, those closest to me, but alas, they would have none of it.

And now, as I lie on my deathbed, I suddenly realize: If I had only changed myself first, then by example I would have changed my family.

From their inspiration and encouragement, I would then have been able to better my country, and who knows, I may have even changed the world

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My Quest

My quest to find healing for myself brought me here. And I found more than healing of my physical pain. I have come to know myself in the process. Forgive myself and those who have hurt me before. I have learned to let go of many ugly things and thoughts in my life. And I have learn to accept new things and be thankful for the grace I have in my life. And to know I am also THE grace to a lot of people and that I have to humbly accept it and cultivate it. I have much to offer and give and so..I begin.

This is just the beginning of the real journey of my life. And I welcome anyone who wants to join me in this quest of giving and receiving as well. Together, we can and we will make this world a better place.

So, help me God!

MY ANSWERS TO THESE POWERFUL QUESTIONS

The following are my answers to Doc Strix's "powerful questions"

POWERFUL QUESTIONS
by Doc Strix

WHY IS THIS A GOOD DAY?
Today is a good day because I was more relax than usual.

WHAT AM I GRATEFUL FOR TODAY?For everything!

WHY AM I HAPPY TODAY?I'm happy because I have a clearer idea of what I'm going to do for the year 2009.

That is -

1. I will get a contractual/traveling Med Tech job (3-4 months) so I can pay for
a. my son Bryan's tuition fee ($7K) for his 6 months study to become a musical producer.

b.my NLP class ($4K for 20 days class) that I'm planning to take in San Francisco.

2. I will help Bryan get his own apartment by co-signing with him.

3. I will come back here in the Philippines with hopefully enough money to start my own business of Mind & Body Healing Center


WHAT THINGS TODAY SHOW ME WHAT DIRECTION WOULD BE BEST TO HEAD TOWARD?My conversations with my son and my sister. I was debating in my mind where to work in US when I get there. And I have resolved that I should stick closer to where they are.

IN WHAT WAYS CAN I IMPROVE TODAY?I should have exercised and did some stretching today.

IN WHAT WAYS CAN I EXCEL TODAY?By reaching out to other people today, which I didn't. I chose to stay home and relax instead.

HOW IS THIS USEFUL?
Reaching out to people? I love people and I learn each time I interact with them.


HOW DO I SET THIS UP SO THAT I CAN ACHIEVE EXCELLENCE TODAY?
I should have gone to bed last night earlier so I would have been less tired today.

WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?
To help lots of people. To help people empower themselves. To help them find their purpose as well.

Manual Medicine Group: Manual Medicine Techniques - MET - Sharing

Manual Medicine Group: Manual Medicine Techniques - MET - Sharing

ON PATIENCE

My husband often tells me I am so impatient. And he is right. So I have to learn to be patient. At least I try to be. This quotation I found today is so true...

"Learn the art of patience. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure. Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success."

~~~Brian Adams

What I learned today!

POWERFUL QUESTIONS
by Doc Strix

why is this a good day?
what am i grateful for today?
why am i happy today?
what things today show me what direction would be best to head toward?
in what ways can i improve today?
in what ways can i excel today?
how is this useful?
how do i set this up so that i can achieve excellence today?
what is my purpose?


Thanks Doc Strix! Some powerful stuff there!

WELCOME 2009!!

It was a quiet New Year's eve for David & I by choice. We had a big dinner with families on Christmas eve, so we decided to have a low-key New Year's eve. I even had the staff take a night off and let them enjoy their families as well. Since it was just the three of us, my mom-in-law including, we just ordered pizza and I cooked Pasta Alfredo. Along with lots of fruits and cut up vegetables with ranch dip, downed with Martinelli sparkling cider, our New Year's eve dinner was excellent.

David had a blast listening and watching the fireworks in the neighborhood. We don't celebrate New Year's eve like that in the US. There are display fireworks in the big cities and people usually just watched them on TV. So this was entirely another new experience for David.

It was for me, too. Eventhough, we didn't invite friends and families to celebrate the New Year's eve, I was content. I was at peace. For a moment there, I remembered my mother and said a little prayer. I still miss her to this day. I remembered all our other New Year's eve in Sampaloc where we grew up. It was loud & happy. Foods and drinks were flowing and our home is open to everyone. I'm thankful I have those memories.

It's 2009 now. Wow! Time flew by so fast. Nevertheless, I'm ready. I feel there will be a lot of changes for me this year. Good changes, I hope. We'll see...