The Dating Game

(Part I)

I recently joined a popular dating site. Reluctantly. I felt I'm so desperate. The truth? I am! But I don't want anyone to know that. Then a colleague told me that's how she met her wonderful husband. And that got me thinking. She's happily married to this wonderful man. And maybe, just maybe, I'll meet a wonderful man, too. So I joined and reluctantly paid a month of subscription. Just a month. Just a trial. We'll see what happens.

Wow. For just under 24 hours, I had so many likes and winks from men who are interested in me. I got several emails. In the beginning, I tried to reply to all the emails. I thought that was the right thing to do. I confided to my younger friends and found out I don't to have answer all the emails. Just those ones I like. Okay, that was easier. I almost got stressed answering all of them. So I sat down and really looked at all the profiles who emailed me. I found two profiles out of ten that I really find interesting. And went from there.

In short, I got two dates right off the bat.

KISSES & SMOOCHES

 

I love a great kiss! It doesn't happen all the time, of course. But OMG, when it does!? Oh, boy! Yeah!

HAPPY SMOOCHES TO ALL!

 



ManilaROSE Forever!

ManilaROSE Forever!

her tears are real

a million miles an hour she talks

hearty laughter can be heard

all around the hood.

the stories she tells are so hilarious

makes you forget what's out there

coz in here with her, the world disappears. 

she's always there for joes and janes

consoles, cajoles, make them smile

make them feel life's awesome and more.

busy as a bee she works

hobbies galore, schedules are full

friends abound and easy to meet.

then darkness comes

she's afraid of the night.

not of the dark mind you.

but the nights that make her alone

 make her lonely and all.

what can she do?

suddenly no one's in sight

coldness envelopes her

frightening realization from her soul.

yes. she's weak. as everyone else

but not anyone thinks that way

of her.

she's a pillar. a foundation. a wall to lean on.

oh no she can't cry.

no one must know.

and yet. she does.

the wail that no one can hear goes out freely.

sobs like a wounded child.

tears are flowing now. abundantly.

pain inside pours out.

yes. her tears are real.



What would you do if someone close to your heart lied to you? The kind of lies that make or break everything.

darkness

there's this darkness in this world I can wallow in it I can stay there forever. the hum puts me to lull the pure rhythm of nothingness soothes my soul. I don't have to be me that the world expect of me rather the me that's real inside of me. just want to be cradled and to cry on its bosom love whispered in my ears. floating away is a pain from this bliss of fire within grasp me. don't let me be. yet it was said alone i became alone i unbecome. pray for me, I say if you believe in this darkness that envelopes my core.

Excuse Me

Beep. Beep. Excuse me! I'm hurrying! Gosh! In a couple of days, I'm turning 49!! Ouch! Seriously! Where were the years gone by? What happened over the years? These are my questions I'm pondering for the last few months. And it's almost here. I know the alternative is not good. Birthdays are good! Right? I should be glad. I am glad. Thank you, Lord. But...